As you are all aware of yesterday I was to start the clinical drug trial well I won't be, I have been declined as a candidate for this. I knew as soon as Dr. Kapoor entered the room that I would not be able to be part of the trial and when he spoke Doug and I thought oh no they found something on my lungs but fortunately it was not my lungs, liver or pancreas. My CT scan showed that I have two enlarged lymph nodes on my left side near my left kidney. Now Dr. Kapoor has said that he is pretty confident that it is not cancer and that it could be residual effects from having surgery, or they have caught some cancer cells and they are fighting them off or I could have a bug and they are enlarged because of this. So what this all boils down to is no drug trial because I will have past the 12 week of being able to be part of the trial, I will be having a CT scan at the end of June and will get the results at the beginning of July, so now we wait to see. If the next scan shows that they have reduced in size I will then have CT scans every 3 months and if they are still enlarged I will be put on the drug that I was going to be taking for the drug trial.
I am so relieved and thankful that the scan showed nothing on my lungs or other organs this being said I am disappointed that I will not be part of the drug trial but when life throws a curve at you then you have to just go with the flow. I am not going to sit and stew about what if because I have to many things to look forward to this year, we will be taking Alex to Peterborough so that he can begin his post secondary education in Police Foundations, we will be empty nesters come September and in November Melanie will be presenting us with our first grandchild.
One thing I have learned from this journey is to expect the unexpected. Things never seem to go as planned when you are diagnosed with cancer.
Glad to hear it hasn't spread to any other organs. What a relief! You do have an amazing year to look forward to!! Lots of positive vibes and prayers for you. Thank you for the update. Thinking fo you lots.
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Thanks Kimmy, I am so fortunate and I count my lucky stars that I have supportive family and friends without you all I don't know if my outlook would be so positive.
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The road looks less bumpy! Thank goodness!
ReplyDeleteThe Doc's comments were really positive concerning the lymph nodes and I'm so glad no other organs are involved.
You have lots of happy things happening to you this year with regards to Melanie and Alex. And in September you and Doug can run naked in the empty nest! LOL
Keep positive!
Love,
Di
Oh Thank God Denise!! I was thinking of you yesterday if you had found anything out. I`m so happy that nasty disease didn`t spread. I`m praying those lymph nodes are just enlarged because of your surgery. You know I`m always here for you!!
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Mary Ann
@ Di, Yes the it looks like there is a very bright light at the end of this very long tunnel. I do have lots of happy things happening and that is what I have been trying to think of when I am starting to feel down. We do keep telling the kids that when they are gone we will be running naked through the house chasing one another. LOL They just cover their ears and say we don't want to hear anymore.
ReplyDelete@ Mary Ann, thanks my friend I know where to find you and don't forget that I am here for you too!
Love to you both,
Denise